Well first of all I have to say massive thank you for the amazing response my last post got. It has been viewed thousands of times, I never imagined it would generate that sort of interest. I want to thank everyone who sent me lovely messages and comments, it made me quite teary reading them all.
Of course in amongst the lovely comments there were a few very unkind ones, and that has caused me quite a lot of stress. Stress and my illness don’t go well together, I’ve had 2 migraines in the three days since I published the last post! I knew of course that some people would disagree with what I said, but because I never thought the letter would garner this much attention I wasn’t prepared for it.
I’ve always had a slight complex about people not taking me and my illness “seriously”, not helped by the fact that depression and M.E. are amongst the most stigmatised illnesses around today.
I had already decided not to respond to any of them because the people who commented are the sort of people who I’m never going to bring round to my way of thinking. I did make the exception for a few though, just because I couldn’t stop myself, and I went with the “kill them with kindness” attitude. I think I’m going to post screenshots of my favourite ones (good and bad) to my blogs Facebook page so head on over there if you want to see them.
Yesterday morning I deleted all social media apps from my phone, and that significantly helped with the stress. I didn’t have a *ping* every time someone commented and the feeling of dread wondering if it was going to be something nice or nasty. I think I’ll keep them off my phone for a while actually, it’s much less intrusive.
As a result of all this I’ve been feeling pretty terrible the last few days, I’ve barely been able to leave my bed. Hopefully things will calm down in the next few days.
It’s made me think about blogging in a whole new way. Obviously this blog is relatively new, but I’ve been writing about my experiences with ill health for nearly 3 years. This blog has already got more attention in it’s short life span than my other one did the whole time I was writing on it. I’ve always said that I write for me, to stop myself going insane with all the time I spend by myself, but recently it’s become more than that. I love that I’m connecting with people who are in similar situations. It makes me feel so much less alone, and if I help people in return thats a huge bonus. However I’m not sure how I would cope with having the same level of attention I’ve got over the past few days, all the time. I guess I’d have to grow thicker skin, and quickly. I’m pretty sure thats unlikely to happen though, so it’s all good.
It was my dad’s birthday yesterday, so we had cake and presents. This is possibly my favourite photo of the day! haha 🙂
Until next time, Rhosyn.