This time of year brings up a lot of emotions for me. For the large majority of my life these next few weeks would have been a mix of excitement and nervousness at the prospect of starting a new year at school, college, or university.
I always liked school, and I don’t care if that makes me a nerd.
I loved learning new things, and although school was often spoilt by other (mean) people that were there, on the whole it was a good experience.
As a result, education was always a huge part of my personal identity and of the future I imagined for myself. So when it was taken away due to my illnesses it was just as hard as losing other things, such as my social life, if not more so. It was incredible painful at the time, and for a long while afterwards.
Even though it’s been two years since I was in education, I still get that sense of a fresh start when it comes to the beginning of September. I find myself “phantom shopping” for stationary and clothes that I would buy if I was going back. My sister, cousins, and lots of my friends are preparing to start a new school year, and I still get a sense of sadness that I’m not.
However it makes me all the more determined to go back to education as soon as I’m better. In fact it’s the first thing I’m going to do! In the mean time, I’ve found new ways to learn; I read a lot of books, I watch documentaries and films, and I count myself very lucky that I’m able to do all those things! I’m determined to use this time to grow as a person, it’s that that keeps me going despite everything.
Until next time. Rhosyn