It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything, I know. I’ve been struggling a bit to find energy and motivation to do..well…anything. However this week has been a bit better, and it was actually a very important week.
On Monday I finally pulled the trigger and made an appointment at Breakspear. This is a private hospital that specialises in chronic illnesses/allergies. I’ve been dithering back and forwards as to whether I should go for this for quite a few months, but I finally decided to do it. I think I’ll talk more about this in more detail in another blog post, as there is a lot to say! haha.
On Friday I finally (after 15 months waiting!) had my Work Capability Assessment. In case anyone doesn’t know what this is, I’ll leave a link to a blog post about it HERE, I wrote it right before my first appointment which got cancelled last minute. Basically it’s an assessment to determine whether you’re “fit for work”, or whether you can continue to receive sick benefits.
If you read the blog post I linked above it will help you understand why I was completely terrified before my appointment, but it wasn’t nearly as bad as I was expecting. I was seen by a doctor, because of the conditions I suffer from, and he was really nice. However I was feeling truly horrific all the way through, I was in a lot of pain, had a headache and felt as though I could pass out any second, and because of this I couldn’t really answer his questions very well. Everyone I’ve spoken to said this could be good because the doctor would be able to see how ill I am, and he didn’t bother to do the physical examination, so hopefully they’re right.
PHEW! Is all I have to say now it’s over. Of course I have to wait for the result now, but I’m choosing not to think about that right now.
Also on Friday my post for the “illness army” section of Indisposed and Undiagnosed (my friend Cass’s blog) was published. It’s an edited version of my “things I wish I knew when I first got ill” post that I wrote on here a few months ago. I’ll leave a link HERE if you want to go and have a read, you should also stick around and read more of Cass’s blog. It follows here struggles to get diagnosed, and to adapt to life with chronic illness. It’s incredible raw and powerful, and she’s pretty great too haha.
On top of all that, I feel like I’m living in a plague house at the moment because both my parents have had the flu. I’m so anxious that I’m going to get it as well (anyone who’s chronically ill can sympathise with me here), I’m practically bathing in antibacterial hand gel haha. Fingers crossed I’ll be able to stay flu-free!
Hopefully I’ll have to energy to post a bit ore regularly now, I’ve got so much in my head that I want to write, but just no energy to put pen to paper (figuratively of course) haha.
Until next time, Rhosyn.